Monday, August 27, 2012

Goodbye, so yong, fah-well ah friends.



I haven't been posting these past slew of days because 1) We've been busy wrapping up summertime with all of that swimming and ice creaming and muumuu wearing we like to do and 2) I had a lump in my throat and didn't want to write this post. (Spoiler: Everyone's fine.)

The truth is, after much (much too much to be honest) thinking, I've decided to close up shop at BJA.

I've gone back and forth so many times; totally convincing myself it was the right thing during Monday's shower and then totally convincing myself it wasn't during Wednesday's. (I don't shower everyday, okay?) Back and forth, rinse repeat, apply conditioner liberally.

This little project here has been chugging along -- through Los Angeles days and San Francisco days, pre-engagement days and wedding planning days, honeymoon days and pregnancy days, newborn days and dog days and scary days and awesome ones -- for six (6!) years and it seems so very strange to say goodbye.

But something won't stop tapping me on shoulder: "You're done now, I think." It's just a feeling that keeps coming back.

I've made real friends over here. Friends I really hope to meet in person one day that I never would have met otherwise. I had no idea that would happen when I wrote my first post about... Ashlee Simpson's new hair color, I believe? (I miss you, Ash!) It seems almost magical that there are now people sprinkled throughout the country/world who know me and my bi'ness and send me well wishes and funny emails and homemade underwear. It makes me feel really lucky; these people got me through some very dark times.

The interesting thing, though, and one of the central reasons I'm stopping, is I feel like some of my real life relationships sometimes get funky because of what I write here. I don't mean anything crazy dramatic by that (and I'm not talking about life with cc or Harper), I just mean: When you put your life online and then tell people you know where they can read about it, things can get a little lopsided/one-sided in friendships. They know what I wore to Whole Foods last night, I have no idea where they live now. It's only normal, but I'm ready to move on from that.

I'm also ready to give HJ a bit more online privacy. I'm all over the map when it comes to my feelings about kids and the Internet, but something in my gut is telling me to step back right now.

And I'm ready to write new things, different things. I've got a new story underway that I hope to devote a lot of time to. Maybe I'll start a salty anonymous Tumblr where I can be a lot more irreverent and inappropriate. Maybe. I just know I love to write and have many little stories and words inside of me I want to put out there. Just gots to find the right how.

I'm dragging this out too long already, I know. So I'll leave it alone with this:

Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who has read along and cheered along and brought me and my family such brightness and laughter and support these past six years. I'm really going to miss this cozy space of mine. It's been so good for me.

All the best, friends.

51 comments:

  1. Well, I'll miss you lady. Best wishes to you and your family!

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    1. Thanks, Beth! Appreciate all your comments and support thru the years :) I'll be sure to check in on your fam!

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  2. Anonymous1:29 PM

    I will really miss reading your blog. It is a highlight of my day whenever you write a new entry. You have an amazing talent for observing the world and writing about it in an amusing and insightful way. I hope to read more of your work some day, in whatever format it may come!

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    1. Thank you so much! What a nice thing to read :) I hope you get to read more of my work one day, too! Thanks for stopping by for all these posts!

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  3. Grrr - I love your blog! But, I totally understand. You are hilarious and real. Plus, you are the one special blog that's just in my bookmarks and not in my google reader. I just click over once daily for a special treat (not like the rest that get filtered into the hundreds of other blogs I read).

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    1. Major compliment to be a bookmark blog! :) Thanks, mama. Loved getting to know you a bit more thru emails and our blogs! Will make sure to keep checking in over in your world -- love your little guy, your style, and SF of course :)

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  4. Anonymous3:48 PM

    But I want to read more! (Seriously, thanks for six years of posts Amy!) -Ian

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    1. Thanks, Ian!! I'll keep ya posted on where I write next ;)

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  6. Amy, I will really miss checking in here. I can't believe when I first started reading you were back in SF, pre-baby, moving, and now here we are, Harper's a real little person, you live on the other side of the country and Denver happened somewhere in there. I can't tell you how many chuckles and thoughtful moments you've given me. You have cheered me up on many a blah afternoon. You've made me want to find ways to record a little bit of daily life because it adds up to a lot. Thank you.

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    1. Thank you, A.J.! I've always loved your insightful comments and encouragement. Will miss connecting thru this, but glad I can reach you other ways :)

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    1. Kaaaaaaaaaaaalen. We fell in love here, 4 years ago. You couldn't get rid of me if you tried. kthxbai

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  8. sharon9:27 PM

    Onward and upward, Mouthy! You are a wonderful writer. Can't wait to read whatever you set out to do next.

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    1. Thanks, Eb! Means a lot. I'll contact you second, right after I send my manuscript to Tommy. *munch munch munch*

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  9. I understand your desire to move on but am so going to miss this blog and the pictures.It is selfish of me to want you to continue, but it has been my connection to you, Clay and Harper. You have made me look for clever connections in other writings, for you do have a gift to see the humor in everyday activities that just slide by me.
    I miss BJA already.

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    1. One of my biggest and most steadfast fans :) I will be sure to send along a stream of pics and updates so you're not in an instant vacuum!

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  10. Amy, I'll miss stopping by your blog in the morning with my cup of coffee to see what you, CC, HJ and George are up to. It's been a lovely way to keep up with your crew since our GSP starbucks days out in SF. You are fantastic.

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    1. Thank you, Logan! I miss you, lady! I know we'll meet up again one of these days in Mass or NH etc etc... Hope nursing school is great. xoxo

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  11. AmyAmyAmy! I completely understand where you're coming from! I've been dragging my feet on our own blog space. Go with your gut, especially if your gut is leading! I am going to miss your blog and posts and pictures. I know we'll still connect in other ways. You're such a great friend to find here! XOXOXO

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    1. Thank you, Miss Mandy!! You know I adore you and am so glad we found each other. I hope you don't quit yours because oooo I love it, but obviously I get it :) xoxo

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  12. Can we keep this up just as an ad platform to monetize?

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  13. Christie2:59 PM

    Man, I love me some BJA! I'll just have to get my news via (awkward group) text messages. ;) MUAH!!! Heart you guys! I am dreaming of a visit to CT and NYC this fall... xoxo

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    1. I will *always* keep you (and Jeff) posted on all my bodily functions via texts. Love you cuz!! I will force you to visit this fall -- Museum of Natural History anyone?! You know Cam would love it!

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  14. It sounds like you're ready to end things on a high note :) But I will miss reading your blog! Let's stay in touch!

    Blogging has become such a strange creature nowadays. When I started my first 'online journal' (before the word blog was even a thing), barely anyone even used the internet and self-made webpages were for nerds. Now it's this whole other thing and I go through phases where I question why I want to keep writing. I think in my case its more for myself and I share such a limited amount that I'm happy for now.

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    1. Thanks, mama! Stay in touch we will!

      It was a hard decision and I think sharing less is a good solution. For me, I was finding I wanted to share MORE, but felt stifled because of various reasons -- and so it was better to end while on a high note as you said. Love your blog, keep it up!!

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  15. Wow. Im stunned and bummed out, but totally understand your thinking on it. I too, am torn about the amount our kids are put on the interwebs so I get it. I loved your humor and take on the world. Ive never met you, but found your blog from a friend of a friend. (isnt that how this stuff rolls?) I'll miss your insight, but am happy you are looking forward to bigger and better. Thanks for the laughs :)
    Lynn

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    1. Thank you for reading and for the very kind words, Lynn! It's really fun to hear from people who were checking in over here :) All the best!

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  16. I will miss my Amy and Harper fix. I checked in on you guys when I missed you too much(which is more frequent now that I am home)! You are a great writer and I look forward to reading your New York Best Seller some day. Give that sweet thing a hug from me and her buddy C. Love You!

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    1. Love you and miss you, too, Jen!! Thanks for all the encouragement in so many ways :) We'll make a visit happen one of these days!!

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  17. Sad. But understandable. I'm leaving you in my Google Reader in hopes you sneak back. I actually remember very distinctly when I first clicked over and you caught me hook, line & sinker. The beginning of our love story.

    See you in NYC, someday, somewhere.

    There's a place for us. Somewhere a place for us. And when you're a jet, you're a jet all the way.

    And so it will be for us.

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  18. It's only just out of reach
    Down the block, on a beach
    Under a treeeeeeeeeeeeee.
    I got a feeling there's a miracle due
    Gonna come true,
    Coming to meeeeeeeeee!

    (I will make you come out here.) <3

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  19. Amy, I'm so proud of you! You have given so many people warmth and humor, and that ain't no small thang. The blog will be missed- but you will have time and energy for new pursuits, including more time to drive to Maine- yay! Love, mom

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  20. Was it something I said? ;-) just kiddin, mama. I will miss your online presence, though. I loved knowing what you wore to WF last night and seeing Harps in all your homemade knit garments and thrown-together style that I myself envy. All right. I suppose this means we will have to keep the emails more frequent. xo

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  21. Ashley R9:09 AM

    Boo hoo!! I loved checking in here for a laugh and seeing how you and the fam were doing! I guess we're just going to have to get together soon for a real in-person catch up sesh :) Are you going to keep it up online? I have new mommy friends who have started reading as well and they'll surely be sad to see you go. But Im really excited for your new writing project! You're a talented lady, Miss Amy! Love to see you and Mama Judy some time soon. Fall is a beautiful season for Maine ;) Wishing you all the best!!! Maybe just turn all these entries into a book? Talk soon.

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  22. Oh no........... :( I understand your choice though; as a close friend of a prolific blogger, I have been on the other side. It is weird to know the minutiae of her life while she has no reciprocal knowledge of mine. I found it easier to avoid reading her blog, so we would have more to talk about over coffee or whatever. And she would send me posts via email if she particularly wanted my opinion/input. I will miss your witty posts and the cuteness that is Miss H. All the best to you!

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